HOPE: For the first time in my life I am living the way God intended... in dependence on Him. My faith is becoming tangible. Not simply in words or "that's what I'm supposed to think or say" but in truth. I'm not "there" but it's becoming more natural all of the time. God is changing me. (Not quickly enough, Allison would add) I now see hurdles as steps, anxious to see what God has lying around the next corner. HE LOVES HIS CHURCH MORE THAN ANY OF US EVER WILL. As an example... this week I was challenged to lead at a higher level. It began last week with a series of phone calls from all different directions and involved several different issues. Six months ago I would have been over-whelmed trying to "manage" it myself and figure out how to fix it. In the past, I would have viewed that as a downer, now I rejoice in it as it causes my faith to grow and sets me free from the need to fix things. I rejoice in the hope of the glory of God. (Romans 5:2-4 through whom we have gained access by faith into this grace in which we now stand. And we rejoice in the hope of the glory of God. Not only so, but we also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope.) Oddly enough as I look back over the past year, the things that have been difficult have produced the greatest joy in my life as I have seen God work through them. Change comes in bursts... God uses events and circumstances to help us take big jumps. I've taken a big jump in the past few weeks and it feels good. Thanks God.